I sat and watched an iris bloom.
Have you ever taken the time to do that? I read somewhere that you can see the slow opening of the petals during unfoldment. As much as I love irises, I knew it was something I wanted to do before I die.
Two days after the spring equinox, the William Faulkner irises at the front of my house were standing strong and vibrant in tall stalks with buds above sword-like leaves, promising flowers. A bloom happens when the bud unfolds, the sepals fall to provide a landing pad for bumblebees, and the upright petals stand up. I decided to put aside everything else and devote time to one delicate possibility.
On one side of the front porch, in the perimeter of the arborvitae, death lay. Four baby birds, house wrens, still featherless, had been pulled out of the tall, white George Murphy birdhouse and flung against the grass, I assume by other birds. The black cat who lives behind me would have eaten them. There were no wounds, just heaps of little bodies. The natural world is mean and heinous and murderous.
On the other side of the front porch, among Lenten roses, periwinkle, and grape hyacinths, the irises grew and multiplied. Their rhizomes were collected and pocketed by an old acquaintance from a pile of thinnings on a sidewalk at Rowan Oak in Oxford, Mississippi, home of Faulkner, the Nobel Prize–winning author. A handful of bulbs gifted to me turned into a full bed of flowers and giveaways to English teacher friends.
I sat on the bottom step of the porch in the shadow of the house a foot away from the irises and turned my attention in that direction. Toward hope and life and possibility. In spring, the natural world gives us that, too. It’s a matter of which way you want to look? Petals of the cherry tree flowers sailed by on the wind. I just sat and stared at the capsule of bloom all folded up. The sun inched higher, the shadow backed away, and light fell on the stalk.
Unstirring, I watched as still-folded sepals—the lower three petals above the spathe—seemed to puff out in slow motion, like someone was blowing a tiny breath from within. Movements were so slight, they were almost missed by the naked eye. I focused on a small crevice at the top of the bud between two sepal folds and watched it widen—stared, didn’t blink, didn’t move. I saw a flicker of movement, the petals beginning to separate. Kept staring, afraid to blink, afraid to look away for even a second.
Behind me, angry warning cries of birds ramped up. The wrens were fighting off their enemies, the ones who emptied their next and killed their young.
The petals perspired. Tiny gray-purple veins showed up in the light. The sun shone inside the puffed-out petals on the beard, the “fluffy caterpillar” at the base of the falls.
Slight movements. I saw them. Cheered silently, not wanting to jolt or twitch or divert my eyes away from this miracle of birth.
Direct sunlight created more sepal stretching. A flicker. Sepals began to separate. The bud began to open, revealing the upright petals still wrapped together.
Another flicker, a stretching of petals apart from each other, a pop. Two curled sepals. Then three. An iris blooms.
It is the pinnacle of growth, after the forces and processes of nature have worked and pushed and supported the plant to maturity.