Fighting Nature

This is the first summer I really don’t care about growing things.

I’m tired of growing things. Tired of trying to keep the weeds out, worrying about pests and infestations, Japanese beetles, poor soil, mockingbirds and towhees that fight over the blackberries, and possums that come to watch the ripening of the muscadines. Do you know that I have old pantyhose hanging outside on the blackberry vines next to my fence? Yes. I do. To scare away the birds. I didn’t pick enough berries this summer to make a cobbler. The birds got them all. And last night when I took Heidi out before bedtime, there was the possum sitting on the second shelf of the baker’s stand on my deck, as he did last year, come July. He tried to hide his head behind the church birdhouse he was kneeling beside.

I’m tired of fighting nature. You can’t win. Things are going to grow where they are not supposed to. And things that are supposed to grow, don’t. I look at the six tomato plants I set out in April. There’s not one single yellow bloom. The pole beans are running amuck and flowered out in red and I’ve harvested one bean. I’m too old for this. And too tired.

I clear the weeds out of the beds, and they’re back in a week. I can’t get a grip on this. And the Bermuda grass—that awful spreading stuff—will eventually cover the whole house. I just know it. I can’t tame my yard. I just can’t. Not anymore.

This is the first summer that in June, I’m ready for winter. I look out at my yard and think only of preparing it for cold. Defining the flowerbeds in a downtime when things don’t grow and take over. Fresh mulch to sit under snow. No vegetables to wrinkle up and host bugs and mold and leaf rot.

I’m ready to ditch it all.

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One Comment on “Fighting Nature”

  1. sarahbarnes1 says:

    I can relate.

    I have 76 feet of garden along the neighbor’s fence in back. In 2011 I put down mesh and mulch and spaced 3-4 plants with flowers in-between. And then came LOTS OF WEEDS. Crabgrass went CRAZY. I finally hired someone to help me clean it up two weeks ago. I now have (5) plants spaced equally and (4) large low pots with flowers in-between the plants. Trying to decide whether to put pebbles down in-between or plant grass in-between. I love the idea of the pebbles with a rock edging and solar lights — but $$ and upkeep will be the deciding factor. Doing the same all around the garden area on sides and back of house. Love diggin’ in the dirt — but it gets harder and harder.


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